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When you give up the eating disorder behaviors it is normal to experience extreme feelings.\u00a0 This is because the eating disorder is no longer serving to numb them.\u00a0 This is a good thing but it can be very scary!\u00a0 Yes, feelings are a good thing.\u00a0 Learning to feel them and respond to them in a healthy way is hard during recovery.\u00a0 It does get easier!<\/div>\n
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Feelings will not kill you but an eating disorder can!<\/strong><\/div>\n
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Letting myself feel was one of the hardest parts about recovery.\u00a0 When I started feeling all of these emotions I was overwhelmed, scared, and felt like they would not stop.\u00a0 I did not even know what I was feeling at times because I had never really let myself feel before.<\/div>\n
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My therapist would ask me why I was so scared to feel.\u00a0 What was the worst thing that could happen if I felt anything.<\/div>\n
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FEELINGS<\/strong>!<\/div>\n
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\u00a0FEELINGS! I DO NOT WANT ANY PART OF THAT! Of course, my therapist told me that I am supposed to feel- it is healthy and normal.\u00a0 I did anything I could do to keep from crying: avoiding eye contact, counting calories, or pinching my arms or legs.\u00a0 These things worked but they did not help me.<\/div>\n
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I learned that I could trust my doctors when they said they would not let me gain too much weight.\u00a0 Now, they are saying if you feel something scary— it will not last forever.\u00a0 I have to believe this and I did believe this.<\/div>\n
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I hate to be wrong. This time I was wrong and my therapist was right.\u00a0 Feeling my emotions made me feel normal for the first time in a long time.<\/div>\n
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When you give up the eating disorder behaviors it is normal to experience extreme feelings.\u00a0 This is because the eating disorder is no longer serving to numb them.\u00a0 This is a good thing but it can be very scary!\u00a0 Yes, feelings are a good thing.\u00a0 Learning to feel them and respond to them in a […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-87","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/hopeinthemess.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/87","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/hopeinthemess.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/hopeinthemess.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/hopeinthemess.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/hopeinthemess.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=87"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/hopeinthemess.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/87\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/hopeinthemess.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=87"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/hopeinthemess.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=87"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/hopeinthemess.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=87"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}